Drifting from Faith

A Journey Back to God’s Unfailing Love

Right now, I’m a Christian, and I want to share a personal experience to show just how easy it is to be pulled away from God. It happens slowly, often unnoticed, like a gradual breakdown caused by stress or trouble in life, whether it’s work, family matters, or personal struggles. In my case, it was a long process involving many different challenges.

Back in December, I was baptized, and I was absolutely on fire for God. Jesus was at the center of everything for me—He was my whole world. I really connected with Peter, especially Simon Peter’s journey of faith, because it mirrored my own in many ways. At that time, I was so alive in my faith. However, as life became more difficult, the pressures of the world began to chip away at me. I had to deal with a lot—like putting a new roof on my house, my dogs getting sick, and my marriage facing some challenges. These little problems piled up and slowly started to wear me down.

Throughout all of this, I stayed devoted. I prayed every single day, listened to God’s word constantly, from sermons on my way to work to scripture readings throughout the day. I was diligent in seeking His presence. But despite my efforts, life’s problems—big and small—kept creeping in. Anxiety started to take root. I know we’re supposed to cast our worries on God, and I wasn’t necessarily worried about tomorrow, but there were specific things, like my dogs’ health, that weighed on me. They are so important to me, and their illness caused me a lot of stress.

Though my wife was helping with bills and many things seemed to be going well, it felt like the pressure was growing. Little by little, I started noticing that I wasn’t as close to God anymore. My prayers became less frequent, and I found myself listening to the world more than to God’s word. I was getting distracted by things on social media and the news, which pulled me away from my focus on Jesus. There was one night where I stayed up late on a social app, and it kept me awake most of the night. After that, I deleted the app because I realized how it was affecting me. But other distractions kept coming. Instead of gospel messages, my YouTube feed started to fill with political content and worldly issues. These things grabbed my attention, pulling me further away from the path I wanted to walk.

By April, my focus was no longer on God, but on the problems in my life. My father’s health started to decline, and I tried talking to my sister about it, but she didn’t want to hear what I had to say. Then, my dad got into an accident—not a serious one, but it was a turning point because I realized he was confused, and it seemed like the early signs of dementia. This hit me hard, as my grandfather had passed away from dementia. My mind was now consumed with worry about my dad.

At work, things were also piling up—equipment problems, long hours, and physical pain from the tasks I had to handle. All these little things combined started to break me down. I was still facing challenges at home too, with my dogs continuing to get sick. These constant stressors chipped away at my spirit, making it harder and harder to stay connected to God.

And then I began to notice changes in myself. I wasn’t doing things on purpose, but negative words and behaviors would slip out of me. My eating habits declined as well. I used to take care of myself, but suddenly I wasn’t paying attention anymore. Slowly, Satan was pulling me away from God, bit by bit. He was trying to destroy my relationship with God, and I could feel it.

But here’s the truth—I know I’m not losing my salvation. I haven’t lost my faith. But it’s easy to get caught up in the world’s troubles when you let your guard down, and that’s when Satan tries to attack. He tries to take advantage of your weak moments. Even though I wasn’t praying as much, and I was slipping away from God, He was still there for me. God was still blessing me, helping me with things like getting a new roof for my house and steps built by my church. But in the midst of these blessings, I was still being pulled away, and I started to think, “Maybe I don’t need God’s help anymore.” That was a lie. The truth was that I did need Him, but I was too distracted by the world to see it.

Even though I knew deep down that God would never abandon me, the thoughts in my head started to shift. I began to doubt, wondering if maybe God wasn’t there for me after all. These doubts were false, but they still troubled me. It was like an internal battle, with my mind going back and forth. I was still listening to sermons, but not with the same heart as before. I wasn’t as engaged in God’s word.

Then, as my dad’s condition worsened, my focus completely shifted away from God and onto my father’s health. My faith was no longer my main priority, and I wasn’t even praying as much. However, even in my weakest moments, I knew the truth—God had never left me. Despite everything, I knew He was there, patiently waiting for me to turn back to Him.

This experience has taught me something crucial: even when we drift away from God, He never abandons us. He’s always there, waiting for us to return. I want to get back on track. I want to live for Him, to preach His word, and to be His soldier. I know I can’t do it on my own—I need His strength. I’ve realized that Satan will try to destroy you any way he can, and it often starts with the smallest things. But the Holy Spirit is still with me. I’ve given my life to Christ, and I know He will never give up on me, no matter how far I fall.

Being a Christian isn’t about being perfect. It’s about being forgiven, and knowing that no matter how many mistakes we make, God’s love is still there. When you’re struggling, remember—God is always with you. Even when life feels overwhelming, He won’t turn His back on you. You just have to step back and trust that He’s working, even in the midst of the hardest times. He’s promised never to leave us, and He will always keep His promises.

So if you’ve ever felt like you’ve turned away from God, just remember, He’s still there. He’s waiting for you to come back. He loves you, and nothing can separate you from His love. Keep the faith, and trust that He will carry you through, no matter what.